Here's to new beginnings.

So today I started my first day of training at Pappadeaux. I'm learning. It's fast paced, on your toes, never a dull moment. I love it. I have a lot to memorize and I'm not very good at that...but I'll get it. I have to say, I felt like a dyke in my uniform!!!!! It's okay though, as long as I make enough to get us by..I'll be okay.

Water, check
Tea, check
Clean, check
Wash, check
Orders, check
Small talk, check
pre bust, check
deserts? check
bust, check
check out tips, check.

Good thursday.

I had a interview at Pappadeaux yesterday and they decided to have me come back for a second interview with the general manager today :) I'm very nervous. I have like 3 weddings I'm committed to and a vacation I'm committed to. I'm worried they wont hire me because of that.

Mike is sick. He is grumpy. He kept waking me up last night from coughing. I took his temp and he had a 102 degree fever. In the middle of the night he broke the fever, leaving our bed soaking wet - that was hot. He's still not feeling well and he's grumpy. It's hard for me. I try to be a good wife and take care of him. I love him, of course I don't want him to feel bad. But it's hard to care for a grumpy man!!! I wish he'd get better - I like my loving husband best :)

I'm excited, tomorrow Mike and I are having dinner at the Colaw's. They are a great family.

On a scarier note, I'm watching this A&E thing about this man that killed his wife. So his "girlfriend" is wire tapped. I''ve though about how nerve wracking I'd be if I was the girlfriend. What if he knew you were wire tapped? That's so scary. Those people are risky. It's amazing to me while they are being interrogated how stupid people can be. If you're not going to talk unless your attorney is there...dur dur dur your GUILTY idiot. Gosh. People are dumb. I would be such a great detective. But man if I was his girlfriend I'd be terrified!!!!!! Eye yie yie.

So last night at church we watched this awesome video...you should too..
http://secc.lightcastmedia.com/console/3048/748001773

I wish I could figured out how to put it on here...but I can't.

If you're not a Christian...don't be shunned away from this. watch it. It's great. Christians....LISTEN UP! Dang! Kyle Idleman knows what's up.

Change of pace.

Okay I know I just "blogged" like 30 minutes ago...but my day has had quite a turn around. I've been moping, boring, and depressed most of the week. It's amazing what opening the windows can do. Seriously, I feel more alive. I'm not tuned out from the things going on outside the walls that hold my home up. I can feel God's breeze, I can see the rosebush from my couch just from opening the window...it's pretty janky but I think it's beautiful. I can hear the birds...and I remember (can't remember which passage or scripture) but how even God keeps the birds in line...so why do we worry? If the Creator can keep the birds in tacked...doing what he wants them to do...He can control my life as well. I've been going through spiritual warfare big time. It's amazing what just opening the window can do.

I lite up my lavender oil diffuser...the scent is so invigorating. Mike hates it..but he's not here. I have the house to myself..again. I've made the bed, I've tidied up..and I can smell potent lavender. I love it. I love listening to the birds, the air, the cars go by, the kids running past my house. I love this. I love now.

I feel like my day and attitude has been reshaped simply by opening the windows.

Moving in slow motion

So - this job search has sucked. I started out strong. Tuesday I got fired, I needed a day to grieve. Wednesday I was up at 6 doing my Food Handlers license and getting my TABC. That was a all day event. So that took up Wednesday. Thursday I started feeling crummy so I gave myself the day off. Friday went to downtown fort worth to start putting in aps. Put in 3 because the wind outside was so strong I SERIOUSLY had to hold on to the street poles to keep from falling over. Monday gosh Monday I don't even remember what I did...Monday I went to the DR because I felt terrible. I apparently have a upper respiratory infection and bronchitis. Knowing that, I went to Pappadeaux yesterday at 2 to meet the manager. Well, the Host told me they do open interviews at 330. Remember, I'm super sick...running a fever..coughing everywhere...just no good. I called the manager and he told me to come in either today (Wednesday) or Thursday at 3 for a interview. I'm still not feeling well! This is become a MAJOR road block! But today I'm going to relax through the morning, bear through, and go.

Being at home is something new for me. I'm not use to it and I don't like it. There is just nothing to do but waist time on here or watch tv. Both I get SO bored with. I feel like a bum for sleeping in until 9. It's so weird. I don't like it and I'm ready to get a job. Time off has been nice, but I'm over it. Even though I'm sick, I'm over it.

I've been thinking the past 2 days about how much life changes. I'm glad for it, and looking back is hilarious....but this is just a phase in life. This whole "struggle to find a job" this is just a phase. This too shall pass. I can't wait to start Ogle and get my CAREER going! I just can't wait. I can't wait to be in that atmosphere, I can't wait to be in the arts. I'll be a good hair dresser :) I just know it!

From what I've been told most of the people in that industry aren't Christians and that it's going to be hard for me to work there. Well, christian or non christian we are all still human. We can have our disagreements, I can try to show a life that reflects Christ. I can be nice to a non christian. I have non christian friends, and it actually helps me grow in my faith. I just can't wait to start a new phase in life.

Almost a year later.

So, am I a great blogger or what? It has almost been a year since I wrote! Let me recap the year for you.

I quit working at The Attorney Store - right before the company came crashing down. While it is still standing somewhat..I see how God protected me by preparing me with a new job. That job was awesome. I was a nanny. I had two little boys, Alex (4) and Austin (2). That was such a great job. I'd start the day off my making breakfast, typically pancakes and sausage. Then we'd play all day long! Some days we'd do arts and crafts, some days we'd spend it mostly outside, and others we'd just cuddle all day long. Unfortunately, that job just came to a end...so I'm currently unemployed.

I'm going through the search of a new job. I'm going to Ogle in July. Which reading the last post about how I did my bridesmaids make up and hair for MY wedding and just loved it...I know that this is what God wants me doing. I know I'm going to be the bomb and I'm going to love it. Anyways, my plan was to nanny until the end of may, then go out of town with the fam...then start looking for a job to nanny. Well, here I am a month early stuck. No job and heartbroken that I'm not with Alex and Austin. They were such sweet little boys. I know the Lord has something in store for me...but as I sit on my couch all snot nosed, tired, mentally and emotionally drained...I'm faced with the question. What is it God and when? When am I going to get a job? What am I going to be doing? Waiting tables, working at starbucks, working at the church, working at a golf course, cleaning houses....WHAT? All things I have considered.

Today I'm going to Pappadaux and Olive Garden to fill out applications. I really hope I end up getting the job at the church for the time being.

Mike and I have now been married a little over 10 months. Marriage is great...but man...it's hard. No one told me it would be this hard. But we are fighting our way through. No "major" issues have come up...but we're faced with a choice each day. A choice to be loving, or to be selfish. A choice to act like followers of Christ, or a choice to act like a being in flesh. A choice to be loving and caring, or to be withdrawn and only worry about self. I'm working on only choosing the greater.

We have a 2 bedroom house. It's pretty cosy. It feels like home- for now. We live on seminary campus which is a blessing within it's self. It's cheap!!!!

I just met a lady down the street - her name is Chasity. She's so sweet. She home schools 4 children and does not even look old enough to have4 kids. We talk some days in front of the mailbox at the end of the street. Last week after I told her I lost my job she invited me in for coffee. She is such a sweet lady. I hope our relationship can grow.

I've learned a lot over the past 10 months. Right now I'm currently learning more and more that I need to cast all my fears and worries on Christ. Including my job - my bills - my health bills - my heart - my marriage - and my personal struggles. It's not easy..but I'm working.