Update Taylor UPDATE

I tooootalllyyy suck at this!! I need to be more discplined! In more than one way!! Life is good, no room for complaints. School is creepin by slowly but surely. I suprise myself every week. I've had some tought ones, and some projects I've totally nailed.

Things that have been going on
-We moved in with my parents. It's actually worked out much better than I imagined. Things run smoothly and not having to stress over working while I"m in school 5 days a week ALLL DAYYY it sure does make finances and everything so much easier. Although it's been such a blessing, I'm ready to move into a home and call it my own :) With a dog and a garden :)

-We are currently smoothing out the finelines to go home. By that, I mean Puerto Rico. No, I'm not Puerto Rican, but it feels like home to me everytime we go. I would LOVE to have a giant suprise graduation gift to go to Puerto Rico for a few weeks. Hint hint, Mike. ;) We go on a mission trip with our college ministry. I can honestly say I can't wait to get out there and serve. Not that I can't serve here, service in the states is a MUST. There is just something moving inside me for puerto rico and it's people. I've never felt such direct compassion and love for one place. It's amazing. Confirms to me that God is definatly real. The message of Christ is needed so much all over the world. I can't do it alone!!

Isaiah 6:8
"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying ,
"Who shall I send? Who will go for us?"
And I said "Here I am. Send me!!"

Send me Lord. Send Me.

You are the hope to the hopeless, the broken.

Wow..

So...I jump on thing for a period of time then I forget about them!!!! Not always a great thing...but atleast I know I need to keep up with myself!!! I started Ogle, and I love it. I suprise myself daily. I'm comfortable doing everything taught thus far. Short layers kinda scare me, but I can get it done!!! I'm wanting to get my Yoga certification before I finish Ogle so I can have that cat in the bag already. No more pappadeaux for me. It was not a atmosphere I wanted to be in, and was not the job for me. Mike has been very supportive of me not having a job. Too much stress on me is a HORRIBLE thing. I want to focus on the present and the future. That being my relationship with Christ, my marriage, and my career. God has been moving in me in ways that are not explainable. I've been constantly going through some rough times, but I always make it out alive. He protects his people. He's bringing people in my life to show me Him in a different way. I love it. This song has hit my heart so heavy this week..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sd6U5ci_uB8

Hold my heart by Tenth Avenue North




How long must I pray, must I pray to You? How long must I wait, must I wait for You? How long 'til I see Your face, see You shining through? I'm on my knees, begging You to notice me.I'm on my knees, Father will you turn to me? One tear in the dropping rain, One voice in the sea of painCould the maker of the starsHear the sound of my breakin' heart? One light, that's all I amRight now I can barely standIf You're everything You say You areWon't You come close and hold my heartI've been so afraid, afraid to close my eyesSo much can slip away before I say goodbye.But if there's no other way, I'm done asking why.Cuz I'm on my knees, begging You to turn to meI'm on my knees, Father will you run to me? One tear in the dropping rain, One voice in the sea of painCould the maker of the starsHear the sound of my breakin' heart? One light, that's all I amRight now I can barely standIf You're everything You say You areWon't You come close and hold my heart.So many questions without answers, Your promises remainI can't sleep but I'll take my chances to hear You call my nameTo hear You call my nameOne tear in the dropping rain, One voice in the sea of painCould the maker of the starsHear the sound of my breakin' heart? One light, that's all I amRight now I can barely standIf You're everything You say You areWon't You come close and hold my heart.Hold my heart, could you hold my heart? Hold my heart.

Holy, Holy is He.

Rejoice! Listen to the lyrics, listen to Christ sing through her. So beautiful.


Worthy is the, Lamb who was slain
Holy, Holy, is He
Sing a new song, to him who sits on
Heaven's mercy seat

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come
With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You

Clothed in rainbows, of living color
Flashes of lightning, rolls of thunder
Blessing and honor, strength and glory and power be
to You the only wise King

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come
With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You

Filled with wonder, awestruck wonder
At the mention of your name
Jesus your name is power
Breath, and living water
Such a marvelous mystery
Yeah...

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come, yeah
With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You

I tagged me!

I tagged me for me.

What is your current obsession?
Americas Next Top Model & House, without a doubt.

What is your current favorite memory?
Puerto Rico!!!





Starbucks or Peet's?
Starbucks!!!


What's for dinner?
Not too sure yet. Mike is not off work and can not text me to tell me what he'd like. I'd like stir fry :)



What would you eat for your last meal?
Vegetable Pho



What are you listening to right now?
The train passing by.



What is your favorite ice-cream flavour?
Without a doubt, rocky road.



What was your favorite toy growing up?
Playing in the dirt!!! I had toys but I don't remember being attached to one toy. I loved to play outside.



If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Need I say, Puerto Rico?



Which language do you want to learn?
I want to learn more spanish for my next visit to Puerto Rico, and I'd also like to brush up on my german.



What's your favorite quote (for now)?"
My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, 3in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.
Colossians 2:2-3



What is your favorite colour?
blue



What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own wardrobe?
I love long summer dresses.


What is your dream job?
To be a hair artist & instruct Yoga.



What is your worst habit?
I guess how I scratch my throat? Or biting my nails.



If you had 100 euros now, what would you spend it on?
Well, I don't have euros.


Do you admire any one's style?
I admire many different types of styles. Not just one. Let's not limit ourselves.



What are you going to do after this?
Not sure yet...


What are your favourite movies?
I can't pick just one.



What is your favourite fruit?
Watermelon and Pineapple



What inspires you?
The Bible, the people I am around, my husband. Creativeness.


Do you collect something?
Plants :)


What are you most proud of?
The transformation Christ has made in my life.


What do you like most about yourself?
That I usually doubt myself a lot, but I always end up proving myself and others wrong. Is that vain?


What is your go-to nail polish color?
I love black nail polish but right now I'm into the natural look. Nude toes.

You said....

This song uplifted me today...and always does. It's a song of God's promises to us. The artist is Shane & Shane. Pretty funny because it's 2 dudes who love the Lord who happen to have the same name!! Love it!!

Even if you are not a Christian..or even believe...just listen to this song. I'm not saying you're going to have some spiritual enlightenment..but it's beautiful.

The promises God makes for us, are so beautiful.

Change is soon coming.

Life has been pretty mundane. Doing the same things over and over again each day. I'm getting a bit sick of the routine of life. Just how repetitive it is day in and day out. I need change. What change will that be? No one knows. I will not change my God or what I believe, I will not change the things I stand for. But I do need to find a new hobby. I enjoy Yoga & working out but I'm getting a bit burnt out. It's becoming a bit more like a job than like a hobby. I wish I had more artistic ability...more ability to create and be unique. I did plant a vegetable garden in our backyard - perhaps that's something new. I've got a mixture of organic vegetables : tomatoes, hot peppers, bell peppers, Zuni, squash, okra, cantaloupe, cilantro, parsley,oregano, red onions, yellow onions, and green onions. I can't wait until they begin to grow and becoming something I've produced.

My birthday is in 5 days...and we will be out of town. 4 more days that marks Mike & I one year anniversary being married, 3 together. Time has flown by. I'm learning to mend and be more flexible. I've realized some things about myself that I need to change for the better of our marriage. I cherish my husband, but I don't always act like it. I'm quick to put out orders, but not so fast to take care of him. When I do, when He's sick, He's just a meanie anyways. I need to tend to his needs more than just feeding him and making sure his clothes are clean. I wish we had more time to spend together, yet I need more time for myself and hobbies. I've never been into hobbies until I got married. Mike needs time alone while I'm very much a people person.

My goal for our next year of marriage is to be kind, compassionate, and caring. We've had some roadblocks and tough times...and we're still going through one. But God provides.

Today I spent some time with Anna, Gavin, Jennifer, Giselle, and Lola. It was good to be around them today. They are dear friends that I rarely get to see. I learn a lot from both of them. It was good to sit and chit chat. I've noticed in myself lately that the more I'm alone...I get slum and sort of depressed. I don't like this at all. Change is soon coming.

How do I go about this change? I do like myself..I'm just not adapting to new things well. I use to be confident in myself...now I'm anything but. I use to be courageous, now I'm timid and over think. I use to be creative and daring, now I hold back. How do you make these kinds of changes without changing who you are?

I hate this job transition. Very badly. I wish it came easily to me, and that I was more confident. Hopefully I'll get that through practice. I am overly excited about starting Ogle. 1 month and a few days left. Perhaps the creative side will shine out of me then.

Mike and I did have a lovely weekend together. We stayed at The Cliffs Resort at Possum Kingdom lake. We had a beautiful room with a lovely view. Nice meals and a nice bed. We went Hiking..that was very fun.

This is to conclude the blog for tonight. Hopefully soon my spirits will be uplifted and I'll become myself again.

I'm a little slow!

So,
it's been a while since I've posted. Since I got the job at Pappadeaux I've been busy a lot. Well, I say that..SOME days I'm busy. Others, I'm addicted to Americas Next Top Model. Or watching the girls. The girls are Mike's old room mate (Steve) his stepdaughters. I will be watching them a few days a week until their new nanny can start! More money for us!!!!

Mike got a raise, thank God!!! We so needed that

May 30th we will be going on our anniversery get away to..
http://thecliffsresort.com/Accommodations/The-Inn.aspx

If you click on photos you can see a lot more of the cabins. We will have a lake side room, king size bed, 3 course dinner, wine and cheese, breakfast, and a couples massage! We will be there 2 nights and 1 day. I'm very excited. I really wanted to go somewhere extravagant or exotic, but with my unexpected job loss...that didn't happen. So thanks to that.

We are almost to our 1 year anniversery!! 23 more days and counting!! They say the first year or marriage is the hardest...I hope that's true and that it's over. We've had our hard moments...but we're coming out strong.

No baby yet, that's always good :)

Tonight we had our Summer Kickoff at the College house...it was nice. I rocked out on rock band..I'd never really played before and I did very well on the drums. That's because i'm the bomb. I brought watermelon :) Such a summer favorite!

I start Ogle July 7th...I'm so very excited about that!!!

I hope to keep blogging more often..i'm just so forgetful.

Here's to new beginnings.

So today I started my first day of training at Pappadeaux. I'm learning. It's fast paced, on your toes, never a dull moment. I love it. I have a lot to memorize and I'm not very good at that...but I'll get it. I have to say, I felt like a dyke in my uniform!!!!! It's okay though, as long as I make enough to get us by..I'll be okay.

Water, check
Tea, check
Clean, check
Wash, check
Orders, check
Small talk, check
pre bust, check
deserts? check
bust, check
check out tips, check.

Good thursday.

I had a interview at Pappadeaux yesterday and they decided to have me come back for a second interview with the general manager today :) I'm very nervous. I have like 3 weddings I'm committed to and a vacation I'm committed to. I'm worried they wont hire me because of that.

Mike is sick. He is grumpy. He kept waking me up last night from coughing. I took his temp and he had a 102 degree fever. In the middle of the night he broke the fever, leaving our bed soaking wet - that was hot. He's still not feeling well and he's grumpy. It's hard for me. I try to be a good wife and take care of him. I love him, of course I don't want him to feel bad. But it's hard to care for a grumpy man!!! I wish he'd get better - I like my loving husband best :)

I'm excited, tomorrow Mike and I are having dinner at the Colaw's. They are a great family.

On a scarier note, I'm watching this A&E thing about this man that killed his wife. So his "girlfriend" is wire tapped. I''ve though about how nerve wracking I'd be if I was the girlfriend. What if he knew you were wire tapped? That's so scary. Those people are risky. It's amazing to me while they are being interrogated how stupid people can be. If you're not going to talk unless your attorney is there...dur dur dur your GUILTY idiot. Gosh. People are dumb. I would be such a great detective. But man if I was his girlfriend I'd be terrified!!!!!! Eye yie yie.

So last night at church we watched this awesome video...you should too..
http://secc.lightcastmedia.com/console/3048/748001773

I wish I could figured out how to put it on here...but I can't.

If you're not a Christian...don't be shunned away from this. watch it. It's great. Christians....LISTEN UP! Dang! Kyle Idleman knows what's up.

Change of pace.

Okay I know I just "blogged" like 30 minutes ago...but my day has had quite a turn around. I've been moping, boring, and depressed most of the week. It's amazing what opening the windows can do. Seriously, I feel more alive. I'm not tuned out from the things going on outside the walls that hold my home up. I can feel God's breeze, I can see the rosebush from my couch just from opening the window...it's pretty janky but I think it's beautiful. I can hear the birds...and I remember (can't remember which passage or scripture) but how even God keeps the birds in line...so why do we worry? If the Creator can keep the birds in tacked...doing what he wants them to do...He can control my life as well. I've been going through spiritual warfare big time. It's amazing what just opening the window can do.

I lite up my lavender oil diffuser...the scent is so invigorating. Mike hates it..but he's not here. I have the house to myself..again. I've made the bed, I've tidied up..and I can smell potent lavender. I love it. I love listening to the birds, the air, the cars go by, the kids running past my house. I love this. I love now.

I feel like my day and attitude has been reshaped simply by opening the windows.

Moving in slow motion

So - this job search has sucked. I started out strong. Tuesday I got fired, I needed a day to grieve. Wednesday I was up at 6 doing my Food Handlers license and getting my TABC. That was a all day event. So that took up Wednesday. Thursday I started feeling crummy so I gave myself the day off. Friday went to downtown fort worth to start putting in aps. Put in 3 because the wind outside was so strong I SERIOUSLY had to hold on to the street poles to keep from falling over. Monday gosh Monday I don't even remember what I did...Monday I went to the DR because I felt terrible. I apparently have a upper respiratory infection and bronchitis. Knowing that, I went to Pappadeaux yesterday at 2 to meet the manager. Well, the Host told me they do open interviews at 330. Remember, I'm super sick...running a fever..coughing everywhere...just no good. I called the manager and he told me to come in either today (Wednesday) or Thursday at 3 for a interview. I'm still not feeling well! This is become a MAJOR road block! But today I'm going to relax through the morning, bear through, and go.

Being at home is something new for me. I'm not use to it and I don't like it. There is just nothing to do but waist time on here or watch tv. Both I get SO bored with. I feel like a bum for sleeping in until 9. It's so weird. I don't like it and I'm ready to get a job. Time off has been nice, but I'm over it. Even though I'm sick, I'm over it.

I've been thinking the past 2 days about how much life changes. I'm glad for it, and looking back is hilarious....but this is just a phase in life. This whole "struggle to find a job" this is just a phase. This too shall pass. I can't wait to start Ogle and get my CAREER going! I just can't wait. I can't wait to be in that atmosphere, I can't wait to be in the arts. I'll be a good hair dresser :) I just know it!

From what I've been told most of the people in that industry aren't Christians and that it's going to be hard for me to work there. Well, christian or non christian we are all still human. We can have our disagreements, I can try to show a life that reflects Christ. I can be nice to a non christian. I have non christian friends, and it actually helps me grow in my faith. I just can't wait to start a new phase in life.

Almost a year later.

So, am I a great blogger or what? It has almost been a year since I wrote! Let me recap the year for you.

I quit working at The Attorney Store - right before the company came crashing down. While it is still standing somewhat..I see how God protected me by preparing me with a new job. That job was awesome. I was a nanny. I had two little boys, Alex (4) and Austin (2). That was such a great job. I'd start the day off my making breakfast, typically pancakes and sausage. Then we'd play all day long! Some days we'd do arts and crafts, some days we'd spend it mostly outside, and others we'd just cuddle all day long. Unfortunately, that job just came to a end...so I'm currently unemployed.

I'm going through the search of a new job. I'm going to Ogle in July. Which reading the last post about how I did my bridesmaids make up and hair for MY wedding and just loved it...I know that this is what God wants me doing. I know I'm going to be the bomb and I'm going to love it. Anyways, my plan was to nanny until the end of may, then go out of town with the fam...then start looking for a job to nanny. Well, here I am a month early stuck. No job and heartbroken that I'm not with Alex and Austin. They were such sweet little boys. I know the Lord has something in store for me...but as I sit on my couch all snot nosed, tired, mentally and emotionally drained...I'm faced with the question. What is it God and when? When am I going to get a job? What am I going to be doing? Waiting tables, working at starbucks, working at the church, working at a golf course, cleaning houses....WHAT? All things I have considered.

Today I'm going to Pappadaux and Olive Garden to fill out applications. I really hope I end up getting the job at the church for the time being.

Mike and I have now been married a little over 10 months. Marriage is great...but man...it's hard. No one told me it would be this hard. But we are fighting our way through. No "major" issues have come up...but we're faced with a choice each day. A choice to be loving, or to be selfish. A choice to act like followers of Christ, or a choice to act like a being in flesh. A choice to be loving and caring, or to be withdrawn and only worry about self. I'm working on only choosing the greater.

We have a 2 bedroom house. It's pretty cosy. It feels like home- for now. We live on seminary campus which is a blessing within it's self. It's cheap!!!!

I just met a lady down the street - her name is Chasity. She's so sweet. She home schools 4 children and does not even look old enough to have4 kids. We talk some days in front of the mailbox at the end of the street. Last week after I told her I lost my job she invited me in for coffee. She is such a sweet lady. I hope our relationship can grow.

I've learned a lot over the past 10 months. Right now I'm currently learning more and more that I need to cast all my fears and worries on Christ. Including my job - my bills - my health bills - my heart - my marriage - and my personal struggles. It's not easy..but I'm working.