Change is soon coming.

Life has been pretty mundane. Doing the same things over and over again each day. I'm getting a bit sick of the routine of life. Just how repetitive it is day in and day out. I need change. What change will that be? No one knows. I will not change my God or what I believe, I will not change the things I stand for. But I do need to find a new hobby. I enjoy Yoga & working out but I'm getting a bit burnt out. It's becoming a bit more like a job than like a hobby. I wish I had more artistic ability...more ability to create and be unique. I did plant a vegetable garden in our backyard - perhaps that's something new. I've got a mixture of organic vegetables : tomatoes, hot peppers, bell peppers, Zuni, squash, okra, cantaloupe, cilantro, parsley,oregano, red onions, yellow onions, and green onions. I can't wait until they begin to grow and becoming something I've produced.

My birthday is in 5 days...and we will be out of town. 4 more days that marks Mike & I one year anniversary being married, 3 together. Time has flown by. I'm learning to mend and be more flexible. I've realized some things about myself that I need to change for the better of our marriage. I cherish my husband, but I don't always act like it. I'm quick to put out orders, but not so fast to take care of him. When I do, when He's sick, He's just a meanie anyways. I need to tend to his needs more than just feeding him and making sure his clothes are clean. I wish we had more time to spend together, yet I need more time for myself and hobbies. I've never been into hobbies until I got married. Mike needs time alone while I'm very much a people person.

My goal for our next year of marriage is to be kind, compassionate, and caring. We've had some roadblocks and tough times...and we're still going through one. But God provides.

Today I spent some time with Anna, Gavin, Jennifer, Giselle, and Lola. It was good to be around them today. They are dear friends that I rarely get to see. I learn a lot from both of them. It was good to sit and chit chat. I've noticed in myself lately that the more I'm alone...I get slum and sort of depressed. I don't like this at all. Change is soon coming.

How do I go about this change? I do like myself..I'm just not adapting to new things well. I use to be confident in myself...now I'm anything but. I use to be courageous, now I'm timid and over think. I use to be creative and daring, now I hold back. How do you make these kinds of changes without changing who you are?

I hate this job transition. Very badly. I wish it came easily to me, and that I was more confident. Hopefully I'll get that through practice. I am overly excited about starting Ogle. 1 month and a few days left. Perhaps the creative side will shine out of me then.

Mike and I did have a lovely weekend together. We stayed at The Cliffs Resort at Possum Kingdom lake. We had a beautiful room with a lovely view. Nice meals and a nice bed. We went Hiking..that was very fun.

This is to conclude the blog for tonight. Hopefully soon my spirits will be uplifted and I'll become myself again.