Almost a year later.

So, am I a great blogger or what? It has almost been a year since I wrote! Let me recap the year for you.

I quit working at The Attorney Store - right before the company came crashing down. While it is still standing somewhat..I see how God protected me by preparing me with a new job. That job was awesome. I was a nanny. I had two little boys, Alex (4) and Austin (2). That was such a great job. I'd start the day off my making breakfast, typically pancakes and sausage. Then we'd play all day long! Some days we'd do arts and crafts, some days we'd spend it mostly outside, and others we'd just cuddle all day long. Unfortunately, that job just came to a end...so I'm currently unemployed.

I'm going through the search of a new job. I'm going to Ogle in July. Which reading the last post about how I did my bridesmaids make up and hair for MY wedding and just loved it...I know that this is what God wants me doing. I know I'm going to be the bomb and I'm going to love it. Anyways, my plan was to nanny until the end of may, then go out of town with the fam...then start looking for a job to nanny. Well, here I am a month early stuck. No job and heartbroken that I'm not with Alex and Austin. They were such sweet little boys. I know the Lord has something in store for me...but as I sit on my couch all snot nosed, tired, mentally and emotionally drained...I'm faced with the question. What is it God and when? When am I going to get a job? What am I going to be doing? Waiting tables, working at starbucks, working at the church, working at a golf course, cleaning houses....WHAT? All things I have considered.

Today I'm going to Pappadaux and Olive Garden to fill out applications. I really hope I end up getting the job at the church for the time being.

Mike and I have now been married a little over 10 months. Marriage is great...but man...it's hard. No one told me it would be this hard. But we are fighting our way through. No "major" issues have come up...but we're faced with a choice each day. A choice to be loving, or to be selfish. A choice to act like followers of Christ, or a choice to act like a being in flesh. A choice to be loving and caring, or to be withdrawn and only worry about self. I'm working on only choosing the greater.

We have a 2 bedroom house. It's pretty cosy. It feels like home- for now. We live on seminary campus which is a blessing within it's self. It's cheap!!!!

I just met a lady down the street - her name is Chasity. She's so sweet. She home schools 4 children and does not even look old enough to have4 kids. We talk some days in front of the mailbox at the end of the street. Last week after I told her I lost my job she invited me in for coffee. She is such a sweet lady. I hope our relationship can grow.

I've learned a lot over the past 10 months. Right now I'm currently learning more and more that I need to cast all my fears and worries on Christ. Including my job - my bills - my health bills - my heart - my marriage - and my personal struggles. It's not easy..but I'm working.